Okay so far, I have only completed one thing on my new years resolution list.
1) Get a new job! <- this is a must! must get one so i can achieve the rest of the things i want
2) Get a smartphone! <- hopefully I can get one before April (YES! I finally got a smart phone! ^_^)
3) Get iPad 1 or 2
4) Get my own personal blender (blue oster)
5) Get my Olympus (3000, 6000, or 8000) tough in blue
6) Get a new double-insulated ski jacket (a North Face or Columbia one)
Hopefully I can finish the rest of the goals by the end of the year! ^_^
Anyways, I went back to school this semester. I'm currently going for my second undergrad degree in Computer Science. I'm going to change that title once i have a few more comp sci classes under my belt to getting my Master in Comp Sci. At first, it seems ridiculous for me to go back to school, but as I attended class, I felt that my goals in life was too simple.
I mean my long-fetch goals are something that might gradually happen in the next few years. But I'm not young anymore. I thought I would always become a mother at the age of 30 or so but this seems very far now. As I think back to the days in high school, where there was no worries, very carefree, and only needed to get good grades in school. I miss those days. Going back to school made me realize why I had insist on finishing college fast. I didn't like the fact of going to class and sit there and listen to the professors talk for a hour or more.
Now as I attend class, I realized I had wasted time. I should have just finished school as early as possible and found a steady job afterwards. But my laziness got in the way and it led me to where I am now. I hope that I can just finish this degree up fast! I really hate going into classes which I don't have interested in. Of course Im not talking about comp sci. Im talking more about the required math classes that comes with it. I mean, they had to make me take calc 2 when they can figure out that i havent touch calc1 since 7 years ago. How am I supposed to go through calc 2 without even knowing calc 1 again.
If I can have a wish that can come true this instant, I really would wish that I can have a full-time job instead. I can still take classes at night or online but seriously, this thing about going back to school has made me realized how free I was when I graduated and had no job.
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I recently got a call from a company asking if I was available to start full-time immediately from Mon-Fri 9am - 5pm or 8am - 4pm. I was very happy for that few minutes. I asked if I can start after May, but they needed someone immediately. I was disappointed. I mean, am I supposed to take the job and quit my classes when there's only like a month left of school? I paid my tuition for school and I don't want to waste the money. So my question to myself was, should I have even gone back to school? or just get a part-time until I find a full-time? I really was tempted to take the job that was offered. I even asked them if they had a summer job available. They said they will let me know if they had anything. :sigh:
Life is like this. Sometimes it comes at the right time and sometimes it comes at the worse times. I really hope I can finish what I started.
Writing this all out really lessen the stress I have been having. I also realized that I write this blog only 4-5 times a year. Haha I even reread what I wrote on past posts and feel that I really do use this as a stress-reliever. I think this is one thing thats good about this blog. There's no pressure in what you write and it's always here. :)
(first signs of spring)
